I don’t know whose idea it was.
I figured it was just because
I was there and so was she.
I stayed for a day or so.
She asked was I eager to go.
I said not particularly.
So she asked me to stay instead.
Could’ve bitten off her tongue, she said.
She scared the hell out of me.
I slowly realised what I had found in her.
I can’t find the words.
Eyes like hers.
Something inevitable.
It was always both of us no matter we were.
And each time I went,
I came back again.
She was so beautiful.
I can’t tell you how happy we were.
I couldn’t keep my eyes off her.
It took a while to feel tied down.
There were times I said it didn’t feel right.
We’d talk about it late at night.
I didn’t know if I was lost or found.
It had to happen eventually.
She cried and said she hated me.
She said she’d always be around.
I slowly realised want I had found in her.
I can’t find the words.
Eyes like hers.
Something inevitable.
It was always both of us no matter we were.
And each time I went,
I came back again.
She was so beautiful.
We made plans, me and her.
She’d say how lucky we were.
It seemed to happen slow.
I had it all worked out.
I’d used up all my doubt.
She said she just didn’t know.
She said she just couldn’t relax.
I can’t remember all the facts.
It was all a long time ago.
I slowly realised what I had lost in her.
I still can’t find the words.
Eyes like hers.
Something unregretable.
And both of us will always know just what we were.
And now she’s gone,
I know she wasn’t wrong.
Oh, she was beautiful.
